How does your divination give you a glimpse into the growth on your horizon?
- Identify what I am procrastinating or putting on the back burner.
It feels like the right time to rotate the spotlight of my focus around and then till-up what might be neglected in my calendar, social groups, projects, and activities to see what I might drive out into the light. I’ve done some spring cleaning, but there is certainly more room to prune and trim things that are cluttering my life.
I’d created this blog with my content already logged in my journal, waiting to be typed into the site. I’ve uploaded it in waves, saving drafts so that it makes it a smoother ride to keep content moving while still living life. But I’d only created my blog drafts up to week 8! Yikes! You’re right: THIS WEEK.
I’d stagnated! As much as I’d managed to front-load my work, I’d undone all my buffer in no time flat! Arg!
But wait…
I didn’t draw my tarot card on Monday. No, Monday was spent getting my week planned in multiple spheres of life. …No, I drew my card today, Tuesday. Yesterday was when I realized I’d eaten my buffer into nothing, and so this card seems very appropriate!
I’m glad I drew this today. While I’d been feeling slightly peeved at having my cushion gone, it feels less personal fumble and more divine happenstance. “Oh, I was bound to have a week like this: it’s in the cards.” I laughed at my easy willingness to dodge personal responsibility. However, that made me think about how we use spirituality as a means to extend ourselves grace when we might otherwise be critical of ourselves.
It’s delightful to see the complex tool that we’ve invented to guide ourselves: belief. It’s remarkable to see how effectively it allows us to soothe ourselves and others. However, it’s also telling that we require such a tool (divine happenstance) to have that allowance. Perhaps, instead, I should have been perfectly fine knowing that my buffer of posts had served me to better use my time, and not harbored an attachment or emotion about the fact of this use in any way. There simply was a cushion of posts. After time, there was no cushion left. The end.
I suppose that depends upon your belief. A life-path rooted in mindfulness and acceptance might believe that latter idea is the most balanced. Another life-path might state that continual self-critique drives growth and change.
For myself, I suspect the answer lies between those two points, as often is the case for me.
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